Pure Bliss

Live has been nothing but pure bliss lately. I know I'll be singing a different tune in just a few short weeks when my Dear Fiance is stuck working out of town, when we're both sleeping in lonely beds longing for the other. That, is not bliss. However, those nights just shed light on how much we truly love one another and how blessed we are to share any time together. When he's gone, the hugs when we reunite just feel so much better. I love him. With every part of my being. He's the half that makes me whole, that makes me strive to be a better person. I am so excited to be his wife and I hope I can do the role justice.

Just Another Day

Ok, so I guess it's official that I'm an adult now. Don't know when it happened, but it did. All of a sudden I'm working an 8-4:30 day wherein I spend the vast majority in a cubicle and then I come home. It's the coming home part that boggles my mind a bit. What the hell are you supposed to do now?! I should explain, I'm not a go out and about spend money type of person, because, lets face it, I don't have the money to do that. So, I try to spend most of my evenings at home. Which is all fine and dandy to me because I like being home. I just don't know what one is supposed to do at home at this age. I don't have kids to chase after, I'm not a household project person and I don't find a ton of enjoyment in cleaning (don't worry, my house usually doesn't resemble a pigsty, I keep it relatively tidy). This means my evenings are usually spent on the computer with the TV running something in the background or possible with my nose in a book. I just feel like I'm missing something! I mean, there has to be more to life than this, right? Seriously, my only solution is thinking, once I have kids it won't be like this, they'll take up my time. But what do adults without children do for the rest of their days? Are their evenings all low key like this forever? I guess if that's what you so desire good for you, but damn, I don't think I could take it. I feel like my time is wasting away. All done rambling now, if I find something to do with my free time I'll let you know.

Ever have a day that starts great but many small let downs turn it into what seems like a overall craptastic day? Guess what?! Today is one of those days.

I really need to get better at not letting little things bug me, but I'm having a big old problem doing that.

Work caught on

Well it looks like my feeble attempt at being a blogger has been squashed. My work blocked blogger on our network. So, now I'm limited to when I feel like writing at home, which, sorry to say, is not as frequent.

Life has been crazy lately. There have been way too many curve balls which is well noted by a gigantic canker sore on my lip (my body's way of handling stress, great right?). First off, I have an opportunity at my dream job. Well it used to be my dream job, now I'm beginning to doubt it. But I don't know how much is whether or not I really want this different job or if I just really have doubts about leaving the job I'm in. I actually enjoy it and the pay is pretty good for what I consider fairly easy work. Obviously something to dwell on a bit more.

Wedding plans are trucking along. My first bridal shower date was set this morning. It still seems so surreal. I just want to fast forward to the wedding day.

Mortality

One of my coworkers is having her first day back after 4 (?) months off due to cancer. Honestly, when she left I really didn't think I'd see her back. The type of cancer she was diagnosed with was pretty severe and I think our entire office had the idea that she'd be gone for a very very long time. But, no, after 4 (?) months she's back at it. It's absolutely amazing. Any day it can all be gone. Any day you can get a diagnosis that will turn your life upside down and threaten to take it away. Definitely something to think about. I've been very fortunate so far.

My "Future" Is Almost Here

My whole life my focus has been on 'my future.' Always eager to grow up and become an adult. Well folks, it's almost here! I suppose I should take a step up an define what an 'adult' is to me. I've already got the full time job and the mortgage (and have for 2 years) and I still don't feel like I'm quite there. I am a diehard can't wait to be a mom individual. Okay, even more specific, can't wait to get hitched and be a mom. Luckily, my dear husband to be is right on board with me. AMEN! So happy I didn't end up with someone that I would need to talk into having kids for the same length in time I had to push him to propose. Turns out once he put that ring on my finger he was ready to 'grow up' with me, and I CAN'T WAIT!! I know that my baby craziness has gotten completely out of control but with the wedding in sight I just can't help it. This next year is going to flip my world upside down and I couldn't be happier.